ruroken
04-07-2005, 07:36 AM
This will be the last thread about myself... I think...
I believe that our feelings separate us from others. Not only this, but what you do when you feel a certain way. I refuse to give up on anything. I refrain from changing my feelings if things don’t go as I want them to. If I start it, I feel I must take it all the way, or else I’ll accomplish nothing. Losing determination shows weakness, as it means you don’t want something enough. If I weren’t this way, I would never have been able to listen to music with swearing, as I felt that it would not affect me in any way. I do question myself sometimes, but I can’t let it get to me completely, or else my emotions will take complete control, and I’ll commit suicide. I recently lost my escape from this hellhole we call reality, so I’m stuck between a lot of shit. I act stupid sometimes to limit the amount that I have to think. Suicidal feelings and thoughts are in my head a lot, but I fight them as best as I can. What’s worse is that I have a social disability, in which I feel uncomfortable around people. I believe that determination should be everlasting, regardless of what it’s for. Because if you just give up, you lose any chance of getting what you want completely.
I believe that our feelings separate us from others. Not only this, but what you do when you feel a certain way. I refuse to give up on anything. I refrain from changing my feelings if things don’t go as I want them to. If I start it, I feel I must take it all the way, or else I’ll accomplish nothing. Losing determination shows weakness, as it means you don’t want something enough. If I weren’t this way, I would never have been able to listen to music with swearing, as I felt that it would not affect me in any way. I do question myself sometimes, but I can’t let it get to me completely, or else my emotions will take complete control, and I’ll commit suicide. I recently lost my escape from this hellhole we call reality, so I’m stuck between a lot of shit. I act stupid sometimes to limit the amount that I have to think. Suicidal feelings and thoughts are in my head a lot, but I fight them as best as I can. What’s worse is that I have a social disability, in which I feel uncomfortable around people. I believe that determination should be everlasting, regardless of what it’s for. Because if you just give up, you lose any chance of getting what you want completely.