I must admit that little factoid was new to me when I read it, amazing!
I did it all for the lulz.
Yeah.....Dan is actually my blood... The whole thing is a little crazy right now. I honestly don't know him very well. We grew up separate from each other. I honestly didn't even know he existed until I was about 18. Same mom, different dads, and neither of us knew our mom for the longest time. She was pretty wild back in the day and waited until she cleaned up her life before she contacted any of us. Which, I'm glad she did and I'm honestly very proud of her now. But this......this is something else completely.....
A little back story. As I said, I was raised by my dad and step-mom. For all intents and purposes, she was my real mom. She already had three kids of her own when my dad married her when I was 5. My two step-brothers, I love them to death....but there was always a distance there. I would see them fight and squabble, mostly my older brother picking on the younger one (obviously) and, at times, I would join in....but it always felt somewhat forced. I didn't fit in really. There was no real connection other than boys who grew up living in the same house. Fast forward a few year, I'm 21, just came into a decent amount of money, and had only visited my real mom once so far. I figured, 'You know what? I have talked to him on the phone a couple of times and online, but I still have never met my brother and he's never had the chance to actually meet our mom yet. I'm going to fly him out there with me.' She was living in Guam at the time. So, I told him about it, bought two tickets from two locations, since we were living in different parts of the country, and we met up in Guam. We actually had a really good time. And, honestly, for the first time in my life, I felt a brotherly connection. We fought, we drank, we pissed about, etc. Now, I'm going to be a huge nerd here, but does anybody else remember the show Boy Meets World? Remember the season when Jack, Shawn's brother shows up. They end up living together, get into an argument, and wrestle. Then, they both admit that it was all pent up brotherly aggression. It's true.....that happens. That happened with Dan and I. Years and years of watching my brothers fight and feeling like an outsider. Suddenly, I meet this guy....and it just clicks. This is my brother. This is my blood. I do love this man.
After the trip to Guam, I never really got the chance to talk to him much again. We've talked online a couple times. I knew he had a messed up life. I knew he was always in a lot of trouble. All I wanted to do was help the guy out, but he never really stayed in touch or in one place long enough for me to reasonably do anything. Not that I knew what to do. I offered him a place to stay if he ever came out my way, but other than that, I had no idea what I could offer. I just kind of figured that was our way. Doesn't mean I loved him any less.
Then, this Sunday, my real mom calls me in tears......she tells me about Dan. All the old feelings hit back in waves. I'm at a complete loss here. I don't know what, if anything, I can do to help him. I mean, he did what he did. What is there to do? I don't even really know how to contact him or even if I should. This whole thing is crazy.
Wow that's crazy. I knew he was adopted but didn't know the rest of the background. I saw him the last time he came back to NJ and some of the people I know that are close with him said he seemed different. Honestly, this is sad because it seems to me that he had a serious problem with controlling impulses and really isn't a truly evil person. Although at the same time, to pull the trigger, I guess you have to be somewhat messed up to be able to do that.
When they said "sit down", I stood up.
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This might be the first time I agree with MOTO on something. The most criminal person I know did heroin and didn't hurt anyone besides herself. I don't know anyone who's ever been convicted of murder, and I'm certain I don't associate with anyone who is capable of such a thing. I had the occasional classmate and coworkers who seemed very off to me and ended up robbing banks or breaking into people's homes, but that kind of behavior seems pretty damn recognizable to me... anyone who is convicted of murder deserves a lifetime in prison. And no, sociopathic assholes with severe anger problems falling in love is not remotely romantic to me. The fuck??